Monday, September 17, 2007
All is good
I have worn these shoes twice before to school and haven't had any problem with them. Today? My pinky toes were sore before the day even started. And there really isn't much of a heal on these. It's definitely hard to beautiful. Or to try to be beautiful! Ha!
Last night it took forever to fall asleep. I woke up at 2am, fell back to sleep and was up shortly before 5. I couldn't sleep and all I could think about was my first meeting today. Needless to say, I was at the school before 7am.
This meeting wasn't just a simple annual IEP meeting, but a transition meeting for a new student from a different district, and an annual IEP meeting, as well as a meeting for us to discuss further testing for the three-year reevaluation. I think my anxiousness and not feeling prepared was written all over my face. One of the other special ed teachers offered to sit in and take notes. Thank you. Despite the anxiety and pressure I put on myself leading up to this meeting, I have successful lived through it and walked out of the conference room with a smile on my face!
You know, I have been teaching special education for the last two years, but this year I am completely on my own. No one forcing me to have my IEP's looked over (only to be marked up by red left and right) before submitting, no one to tell me to reword something, no one to be a step above me at a meeting and guiding me through it. It's not like I am unable to get help when I need it, because that is definitely available. And was offered prior to this meeting. It's just a different feeling to have expectations (probably stemming from myself) to do well and give all the impression that I know my stuff.
I have another meeting next tuesday, and after today, I know it will go just fine!